A landslide can bring you down!
Well, it’s been a week since we dropped Punky off at college. They still haven’t hauled me away in a straight jacket as of yet. I do have to admit to a few emotional moments, though.
They were self induced.
Know what I mean? Do you ever torture yourself with tunes? When you know good and well a certain song will make you cry, and instead of avoiding it like the plague, you listen to it over and over and over again? You just whip out the tissues and let the good times roll, have a good cry and get it out of your system…
(Torture by Tunes…Sounds like a heavy metal band…)
Well, every morning this week on my commute, I have done just this.
In my car is a cd that a friend made for Punky, and on this particular cd is a version of Landslide, performed by The Dixie Chicks. (I have to say. This is quite an interesting mix. There’s bluegrass, rap, country, hip hop, and Elton John. Wow M.!) I’m pretty sure that when Stevie Nicks wrote Landslide, she had love on her mind. But there are a few lines in this tune that hit home this week:
Can I sail through the changing ocean tides?
Can I handle the seasons of my life?
Well, I’ve been afraid of changing
‘Cause I’ve built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Even children get older and I’m getting older too
Everyone warned me. I was told numerous times NOT to build my life around anyone, especially a lover or child. But tell me, how can you love someone and give them your heart, your all, without building your life around that person?
And while I’m at it, isn’t all this grieving that we do just about getting older and the passage of time? None of us wants it to end.
So, Stevie, your song works for me this week. Thank you.
Everywhere I turn, I see or hear Punky. This evening I was out watering the plants right at dusk. The lightening bugs were out.
It’s a flashback! But just from June…
Punky received a nice camera and a fish eye lens for her 18th birthday. One early summer night not long after, she suggested going out in the backyard to take photos. Next thing we knew, all 3 of us were catching lightening bugs together. It was a memorable night. We laughed and ran and collected and counted.
The whole summer has passed now. Alli is living in another state, and Sweetbuns and I are adjusting to our new life. I think back over the past couple of months and that one night, above any other is absolutely etched in my mind. Nothing about it was planned. Nothing about it was huge, amazing, even that different. It was just that we shared some mindless fun together; all of us enjoyed our inner child. All 3 of us enjoyed being kids together for a time.
I left out the line of Landslide that comes right before what I shared with you earlier;
Can the child within my heart rise above?
Yes, Virginia. It can.
Walk lightly and cry if you need to, IGBOK! (It’s Going to Be OK!)